Richie Caroccio Lost this week
Betty Mazzio Lost this past year
Over the years lost babies to me and good friends:
Pumpkin
T.J.
Jesse (Lower right)
Jesse (top of the recliner)Losing someone to even an animal, the pet you loved a good part of your life can be very painful. You may experience all kinds of difficult emotions and it may feel like the pain and sadness you’re experiencing will never let up. These are normal reactions to a significant loss. But while there is no right or wrong way to grieve, there are healthy ways to cope with the pain that, in time, can renew you and permit you to move on.
For me personally I had in my past have had losses through out my life and recently again from just yesterday, after loosing my 2 puppy babies, a close dear friend (BFF) instead of me lost her first doggie baby not to long ago and even her dear Mom this past year. Now we both lost a dear friend due to cancer.
Anyone out there who has had a recent loss I would like to say to you I can relate with providing my deepest condolences to you and know you can move on. It is all how you go about this grief.
Like I told so many the 2 seperate nights on FB my baby Pumpkin who died almost 13 y/o on that was put to sleep and T.J. at 6 and 1/2 y/o both had neurological problems that made them leave this earth. A dear friend now fighting cancer this past year. They both are all in the next world so much happier being out of misery. It is us on earth who are in misery when we go through the terrible loss that causes depression, sadness and emotional upsetment but it will heal in time like a wound. The other thing I stated on FB in the past loosing a dear person in our lives or even your pets are just like the loss of humans to many, whom we shared our life with and loved have never left us, especially if you believe in a God.
If you don’t believe in God think of the loss this way, especially if the loss is the death of a living creature being human or dog or any creature- know they were probably in pain, failure to thrive, in their ending life process with no possible way to be healed. With knowing that a death is most likely expected and when the death occurs remember the loss is out of misery and at rest. It is harder when the loss is completely unexpected and young at age. Those who believe there is another life remember the lost loved one is not alone, with new including old faces and are living a better life. They are watching over you and has never left you.
God is amazing in sending me messages especially if I ask for a message in someway. Monday 6/5/17 in the morning I check the area I buried Pumpkin with her brother T.J.(who was cremated and in a locked small coffin) to make sure the ground was not messed with by other animals (etc. digging up the dirt) I checked the area out. I saw the site was fine and walked to the side of my back yard 70 feet from the burial site, give or take. Within seconds I heard this noise as I was standing in the backyard saying to myself please Dad take care of my little babies enjoy there company since you never got to meet them and I know you’ll love them. I walk towards the front of my property all of a sudden ducks started flying over the front of my property in a V formation like Airforce jets just after talking to my Dad. It was as if it was like a 21 gun salute just letting me know all is ok and this is in the memory of them. This reinforced to me that lost ones will never leave us with helping us get through life while on Earth. My Dad was helping me, with possibly others in heaven, telling me we know this is a rough time and will help you get through emotional moments of the loss.
My father in 1999 died of cancer but never left me. I know my friend Karen who died a few years back is so much happier, no longer ill and with her sister who she told me months before she pasted that she missed her sister terribly with others she hasn’t seen for a long time and now is with her and those others she didn’t so for awhile. I know the doggies , my father, Karen my old friend, with now my recent friend loss Richie with many other significant losses in my lifetime (both people and animals) that I loved are happier and no longer ill keeping a close eye on me with others on Earth.
I say to myself as long as any losses I have had are better off deceased without being here with terminal disease in misery. I accept that sadness. I know that it overrides my sorrow, any hardship emotions I may feel will heal in time just like in my previous losses. During this time of closure to accept the loss pain its like a wound in that in time it lessens to heals.
Being a RN over 35 years in the career I have seen so many types of patients in varieties of units. The patients I have dealt with have either cured, died, gone home a long time or a short time with the diagnosis they were given and treated. My career has allowed me to so far to be an oncology nurse, hospice nurse, cardiac nurse, visiting nurse, step down nurse, ICU, a floating nurse for 20 yrs. roughly on simple med surg, to orthopedic, telemetry, burn, recovery room units which has helped me except death with being a practicing Roman Catholic easier than others. This has allowed me to use more of a positive approach in accepting a loved one passing on (especially older vs younger). Trust me, I still have feelings like everyone else in this world; and it does hurt.
What kills me mostly right now is not having the dogs in my arms at night in bed or on the sofa keeping each other comfortably, just talking to them and playing with them. Yes I have saved further animals in rescuing them and love them just as much but like all babies in your families you love them. They each have special qualities and moments they had in your life. God has his reasons for losses whether I understand why or not, in my eyes. Regarding people who have to leave this world I sometimes wish we could of done more time together. I am very thankful I got to meet the deceased loved ones that are gone in my life animals to humans and now including another dear friend. I have mentioned in this article from human to numerous pets that I have had from cats to dogs which were always part of my family and have never left my heart. Being a nurse also allows me to take on the role being there for family or strangers by taking care of them. My heart wants to help people get going through their time of dealing with disease and at times a loss/grief. In my experiences it has had more positive than negative ending results. In many cases living a longer therapeutic life with others and in the end keeping comfortable till passing is the optimal level to take for the individual dying and the best result I feel in being a RN should follow.
When death comes in my lifetime of significant others including significant pets who where part of my family (nuclear or distant) I remember only God knows when you walk on or walk off this Earth so cherish everyday the loved ones in your life. The ones I have lost I am thanking God for giving me the great memories I was allowed to be given but that significant life has moved on into the next lifetime whether I understand it or not. I also know the significant losses I have had and will further have in my lifetime will never leave me in spirit and your significant others who pass have not left you either in spirit.
This article was done in memory of my friend Richie Caroccio, Betty Mazzio who past this year and a dear friend, Renata Mazzio, who lost one of her doggies Jesse in the past couple of years including me in loosing my babies both Pumpkin and T.J. who past several years ago which were such a part of my immediate family and so significant. I will miss all these people and animals terribly loosing from both family and friends. All who I have lost recently and in distant years I feel we will meet again at sometime. If you think that is not the case that’s ok and let’s say if that is even true it allows me to deal with the loss so more therapeutically while alive on earth but in my heart I feel we will meet again.
Know it is up to you to replace the emptiness in your heart and life that was caused by the a loss; which does not need to be a death but can be. You will not forget the great impact the significant person or animal or whatever loss gave you in your life when on earth but the great memories you still have to fall back on with even pictures and videos. This way of thinking is productively getting through the grief process, moving on but never forgetting the loss but in a positive way. It of course will be hurtful at first which is walking through this experience of loss in your life but that is why we say you go through a loss and grieving process.
